Arrrggghhh! Am I ready?!

i tell you, i break into a nervous sweat everytime i think about December.


that is when the baby is due.


according to the calculation, it is supposed to be on the 25th of December.


according to the size, it is due on the 5th.


sigh.


well, as long as the baby is fine and it is coming out, then I'm grateful.


the thing is, am i ready?


eventhough i am a momma, the whole process had evolved. now i am on the level of Kimora and trying to teach sense to my daughter, compared to being a mother to an infant that you can't even negotiate with!


and sigh, what if i drop the baby accidentally?


or if my extra large boobies goes on strike and no momma's milk will come out?!


or if i can't manage and divide my time for my 2 babies equally?!



okay, i'm taking a deep breath....i'm just hyperventilating.


and what if i haven't bought everything for the baby?!


i haven't bought the cot's sheets, nor have i bought the damn towels.


and not to forget the blankets.


what i have bought is clothes. lots and lots of clothes.


and socks and clothes.


i still need to buy bottles. i have got 2 dr brown's bottles, but then someone told me that MAM better?! really ke?! should i change then?


and i am still waiting for the toiletteries.


and aaarrrgggghhhhh....napkins, and pillows and matress and......


i give up.


and i only have 1 month to shop.


sigh. wish me luck, guys!